The past has to be let go. We cannot change it. But the future..... the future is amazing

So as I was driving home today from our weekend together, the Twilight song came on. I have never listened to the words before, and this time I did. I know, your husband is sending you the words to another love song. This is the new me???  So it really made me happy. It made me think of the last 14 years together, you have been so alone and I have been waiting for you to come to me. We have made that step and are taking more. This is not a quick process, but you are walking and we are now in forward motion. It will get better each week together, it will come naturally one day. You are my everything. It is funny, everything that was so important to me last week, seems so insignificant this week. I am sure I am on a 'Jane High' right now and will come back down to reality but I like this right now. I liked thinking about you nonstop for the last five days. It was bliss. I know the circumstances that we find ourselves in is nothing close to bliss, and it will change in the coming months. But I never want the way I feel about you right now to change. You are my every dream and thought, hope and promise. I will do all that I can in the coming months to make this sacrifice worth it, I will not let you down. ED took so much away from me. He had the upper hand in December and he was winning the battle against me. He was winning my girl, one pound at a time, one day at a time. But the battle has changed now, we are beating him back, and we are doing it not through finding our what went wrong in your life, but what went right. We met, we loved, we married, we built a life together. That is what is right in your life. You will never be able to change what your mother said to you, or what you saw your mother do, but we will change how we view our life that we have built and how I treat you, and how you treat me. That is going to have a more powerful effect on your mind than anything Satan can throw at you. Our ending is not written yet, the optimism for the future and the love that we have found, melts the sorrows of your youth like a frost in the middle of a hot July day. It will go away if we can learn to love each other, our children and God on a level that we have never been able to achieve before. Life stinks sometimes. Life is crummy sometimes. But that is not life, that is a bad experience. Life is waking up to the person you love every morning and being able to reach over and touch that person while she is still asleep. Life is finding out that the family of two will soon be a family of three, four, five, six, seven and eight!!! Life is seeing my wife come into the Celestial Room dressed in white at the end of a temple session. Life is having my wife splash me in the front seat of the car with a  water bottle and watching her laugh her head off. Life is watching your husband come home sad and broken hearted that he had to put his dog Annie down, and watching him hold back the tears. Life is seeing your little girls do sloppy cart wheels and draw all over their faces with makeup for the first time. Life is watching you boys come home from hunting and camping trips a little more manly, a little more confident. Life is walking in to our bathroom, after telling the girls yes to 'having a bubble kingdom' bubble bath, and not knowing what that meant till you see it!!!!! Life is looking into your husband's eyes, knowing that he would do anything to have you walk hand in hand with him, emotion in emotion, in pain and happiness. This is what life is. The past has to be let go. We cannot change it. But the future..... the future is amazing! The future is whatever you want it to be! And I know that we will have whatever we want it to be. We just have to let the past be the past and let the future be the story that we write, together. And.... I LOVE MY GIRL!!!!!!!! 

A Thousand Years Lyrics

(Verse 1)
Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid
To fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt
Suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

(Chorus)
I have died everyday
waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

(Verse 2)
Time stands still
beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything
Take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath,
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

(Chorus)
I have died everyday

Waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

(Chorus)
I have died everyday
Waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid,
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more